I finally figured it out.
For the past couple of days I have been suffering from a debilitating blogger's block. And it's not that I have nothing to say, I just did not know what to write about; or if I did, I did not know how to start.
I have always been a procrastinator. While some may see it as a character flaw, it is something that I have been able to use time and again to my advantage. Cramming has always been my thing. Oh I have tried so many times to accomplish my tasks early, but nothing comes out of me until the last minute. My mind when in panic is awash with ideas, churning and fermenting into a creative mass that takes a life of its own. This is the reason why i have always been able to meet my deadlines as a free-lance writer. The sense of of urgency focuses my mind to the task at hand, and I am able to deliver. Well, at least for my clients.
My thoughts when left unfenced are just a tangled mass of unlimited possibilities.
Beautiful and utterly devoid of meaning.
I need some structure to rein in my unbridled thoughts.
I need a sense of limitation.
It is ironic that while i love the editorial freedom of blogs, it is precisely this freedom that makes me lose control over my own creative process. As a result, my ideas go off into all directions all at once and I cannot write a single coherent paragraph.
So I am going off to make some fences; some framework to direct the flow of my writing. A schedule perhaps or a pattern. I am still figuring it out.
